Working with your emotions
Your path began at that awful moment when the doctor said the words: “You’ve got cancer.” You immediately felt as if all the oxygen had been sucked out of the room. Your life turned upside down and, in a split second, many dire thoughts raced through your mind:
How will I tell my family?
What impact will this have on them?
How will I manage to take care of everyone?
Will I be able to work?
What will the treatments do to my body?
How will I handle losing my hair, or the changes from surgery?
Am I going to go through a lot of pain and suffering?
It’s absolutely overwhelming and terrifying.
You may be angry, asking “Why me?” Or you may go into shock, denial, or self-blame. You may try to negotiate with the universe, hoping you are able to will away the cancer if you think a certain way or behave in a specific manner.
In truth, there is no right or wrong way to react when you are first diagnosed with breast cancer, but it is vitally important to honor your emotions. However, the trick is not to get stuck in an emotional pit or in repetitive negative thinking. Think of it as a spiritual challenge: how to move from negative emotions to a more positive mindset, not by burying or denying your emotions, but by allowing them to be and watching them dissipate.
Picture a river, flowing smoothly through the countryside, with beautiful plants growing along its banks. This is like a healthy body when the Qi, or energy, is flowing smoothly. When a “storm” occurs, debris clogs the river. Upsetting emotions or trauma; toxins in the environment; unhealthy food intake; long-term stress—all create the debris that can clog the river. The water is no longer able to flow unimpeded, pockets form, the water turns to mud.
This is a perfect analogy of how a tumor is formed. You want to take action to create movement so you can reestablish the smooth flow of your body’s energy river.